Amazing how there are slow motion times that reveal in fast motion accumulated habits that somehow show up at a point in our lives with a new light. That is what happened to me recently when suddenly, a practice that was an embedded part of my daily routine, was seen for what it really was. Something that has not only caused me to be discontent and, OK I'll admit it, angry. That was bad enough, but the fullness of the "thing" further brought to conclusive evidence the effect of itself on my entire family. A frenzy really. As I shall now reveal.
I want to move. I have wanted to move for a very long time and I have spent hours, countless lost hours, trying to find a property or a way to make it all happen. But it has not happened and I have now come to conclude that, in all probability, will not happen. I have asked for forgiveness and pray that my family will be protected from the consequences of my actions.
Now, as things have changed in my heart, they must also change around me. The many years of neglect of my home are revealed, and it is time to get to work. I even packed up some things in hopes of a different place, but they will be for this place. I will sort through them and make adjustments to revive this place. To revive my soul. Contentment and a peace of mind. It is so simple. Exactly where this will take us I do not yet know, a new journey is now beginning and I am looking forward with gladness. May it be for the glory of God and for our good. I love this place.
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